No more exams for 5 months yayayay!

Yay finally free from all my exams and assignments! So on monday i had two exams.. accounts and managing people and performance. Accounts was harder than the past papers i've previously done, but im just hoping for a pass. Went back to Birmingham for dinner, we couldnt decide for agees where to eat but we ended up with miller & carter. Was so full! Havnt had a proper 3 course dinner in ages, i usually only go through 2 course then im baodoabao! Km went home after so we went to watch Goon~ its actually not bad, quite funny. Was a nice evening seeing my fav people after my exams ♥

Happy 2012!

So Christmas didn't really do much apart from eat with the family.. and Boxing day went out to party. I didn't like christmas this year, 2010 xmas was better, at least more cheery and happy. But New Years was nice with some sweet people with me =)

2012 ~ I have a feeling this is going to be a really good year because I have someone special and some really sweet friends in my life ♥ And it has been so far so good. Went london on 3rd Jan which was sweeet hehe.. iv already seen deeekhead for 5 days this year and its only the 8th Jan!

Super happy cus had my first korean finally ^_^

No specific new year resolutions this year, maybe because i already know what i have to do.. Iv learnt that time is really precious, don't sit and dwell on the past, let it go if it's not right! We live for the future, not the past. Memories can be nice and as much as i don't like to admit it, it is the only thing that doesnt change when everything else does, which is why it is so hard to let go of sometimes. But we can only learn from memories, we can't go back to them. Instead of wanting to go back in time, you can only try to make the times you do have.. better.

2012: 要快樂, 要開朗, 對人要真誠, 要寬容, 要有平常心. 對於困境與磨難, 微笑面對.

~*人與人的交往一定要有誠信。你自己沒有誠信就不要要求別人對你有誠信*~

December

Another year is passing, I used to like decembers but now, uhm, i dunno. This is the time of year where people like to make amends to their lives. Things have changed so much from Dec 2010 to Dec 2011. I wonder where Dec 2012 will take me...

I've been asking myself the same question for a while now... if I'm not bothered about something, does it mean it isn't actually that important to me or is it I have matured to look pass these little things? But I've always thought that you only have strong emotions for things or people who are important to you and you really care about. So is it i now have a better temper to not be bothered or i dont actually care as much i thought i did? I guess only time can tell me....

以前D人和事..總是在我的腦海.. 不知道為什麼.. 可能因為我gum大個女, 只有兩個好好的朋友從來沒有放棄過我.. 永遠都在我身邊.. 但現在一切都改變..

記得...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xthLlCrHYU

誰還記得　是誰先說永遠的愛我 以前的一句話　是我們以後的傷口
過了太久　沒人記得當初那些溫柔 我和你手牽手　說要一起走到最後

Trust...

There are many types of trust out there. But the two that is bugging me right now is trust between friendship and trust between a relationship.

'Friends come and go', and i've learnt this concept ages ago. It might sound really negative but to be honest, this has actually made me cherish even more my friends who have stayed! Trust between friends.. I dont really know where to start. Yeah i do trust my friends.. but i dont trust them either. Ok let me rephrase this, I dont trust all of them. And thats simply because not every friend is important and not everyone affects me the same way. When it involves friends who are important to me, i do get upset and frustrated, and a lot of the times, i turn to blogging. Its like the only place where i can just express how i feel. When i trust someone, i expect a to be trusted too. Not because i feel if they blab my business i can blab theirs too. But because i dont think you can truly trust someone without feeling your important to them and you can be trusted too! It's when I find out that i cant be trusted by someone i trust, thats what upsets me!
And thats what makes me think of the phrase that one of my closest friend has always told me. 'Trust nobody but yourself'

Next. Trust between someone who you have affection for. People tend to like the idea of trusting the person they like, instead of actually trusting them. I used to be the girl who would say 'i trust the guy, i just dont trust the other girls' but thinking back, at the time when i said it, it was actually the guy i didnt trust. Its when i experienced that its actually possible to believe what a guy says without questioning him, thats when i realised that trust is actually something that comes naturally through time, it cant be forced. Whilst your getting to know each other, spending more time with this person, thats when trust develops. But to me, its also true to say, once its gone, its gone and if i ever do say i trust this person again, it would have taken a long time and it can go again over something minor. So the best way is to leave. When you lose trust the first time, you should leave. Ofc its easier said than done and you have to make sure that you actually dont trust this person anymore, not just simply because he made up some silly and minor excuse/lie to you, cus c'mon, everyone lies. But when im in situations where im sure i dont trust nor believe him anymore, then if i was logical, i would walk away, and if anyone else asks me for advice, i would say the same cus trust takes a really long and frustrating time to build back, and sometimes, you may never build it back. But like i said, thats what i would do if i was logical and most of the time when im in confusing situations, i am not logical! so i do hope there are exceptions out there and it will be worth in the end. I guess it just depends whether you really see a future with this person, and if you can feel their side of effort too.

Today has been a really meh day for me. But i guess but you can’t have a rainbow, without a little bit of rain!